a collection of songs i associate with characters or scenarios of p5. lyrics are included for convenience, personal formatting and error correction, highlights, and notes.
there is probably going to be a variety of band names with suspiciously similar vocals. this is because i like donovan melero and donovan melero likes being in 50000 things.
songlist, in order of being added:
behold, the longstanding first and only song on my amaren playlist (pending a new addition i just selected yesterday). touches on the sort of one-way street he has in nearly all of his relationships.
ugly mismatching soundcloud embed because donovan melero is really bad at getting everything up on bandcamp. funfact the only reason his main band's latest album is on bandcamp is because i sent an email 6 months after its release to remind him. maybe i'll email about this single too. anyway
1 my mental mv is picturing a solo visit to mementos, communing with shadows...
2 forever thinking about the sign in the background of joker and crow's showtime that says "prodigal sons"
3 the Meaning™ i have ascribed to this is amaren disbelieving that anyone would put the same effort into him as he does for others.... "words on the pavement" is how he'd feel if he tried to open up: the words landing on the ground between them instead of being received.... am i reaching the moon yet. this fucker is so hard to assign songs to i'm doing my best out here
2025-01-10
feels suitable for the akechi behind the pleasant face leading up to the engine room.
1 i like this as a representation of how akechi and amaren are pit against each other by their respective "sides" of a "war", while both pretending not to be up to anything at all. from akechi's perspective, he's thinking of the shido vs the pts level, while amaren will later learn of the god-ordained toxic yaoi level.
2 "superficial"! rank 3 keyword ゲット！ i'm quite fond of "natural feelings don't feel like they should" to express the way akechi spends so much time under a constructed identity that he may lose sense of what his true feelings are. that's not an aspect that appears in canon, but it's interesting to consider, especially because akechi is someone who denies his own feelings to himself so thoroughly.
3 this repitition gives it a little bit of desperation. reminds me of when akechi moped at leblanc about feeling unwelcome. even though it seemed a bit like he was fishing for sympathy, he ended up being rather honest there, didn't he? his deepest desire to be wanted...
4 i like this slightly modified iteration because it brings amaren "into the loop"; that is, acknowledging that amaren knows akechi is lying, that amaren would rather they didn't have to do this, and akechi continuing to do so anyway.
5 i choose to read this stanza as the sort of sexy violent circumstance of shuake's duel, with bonus amaren masochism. unanalogize the "loaded gun" and analogize the "good hard fuck".
6 a wounding sentiment that reminds me of how hard akechi tried to deny the pts right up to the end.
2024-10-22